Fear is a useful tool. It allows us to know where our own personal limit is and keeps us safe. And it’s WHEN we know where our limits are, we can grow from there.
After graduating back in May 2010, I never realized how sheltered I was. School made it such a safe haven that we were all impervious to true failure in life. Everything we’ve done in school was “play time” and nothing was serious. Once it’s time to fly the coop, It hit me so hard that it’s difficult to find an illustration job out there. Interning at the Society of Illustrators made it even worst. It was like rubbing salt into an open womb looking at people my age and even younger made it to the world I want to be in while I was doing coat checks and serving them Hor’ Derves. I couldn’t bear with it and I ran. I ran out of fear. Fear of failure, fear that I won’t make it. That I am the table legs supporting up everyone else’s indulgent.
But sometimes you have to let go of your safety, or you will never explore new boundaries. It goes the same for an important rule I learned back in school: “Destroy your loved ones” – If you’re drawing something and you really fell in love with the head but the rest of the painting doesn’t fit, don’t try to hold onto that one little part that’s dear. Be able to completely erase it and draw it where it makes sense. the overall outcome will look so much better than a piece of candy sitting on top of a pile of shit.
After a year of running away and not posting anything. I think I’ve had enough, It’s time to turn around and face my fears. I can’t do this to my loyal followers who check back every so often this past year. seeing that there’s still views makes me so happy and sad that I haven’t represented myself the way I should. I’m better now. Lets move forward
I was pulling an all nighter since 12/30/10 working on the Water is Life competition. For 48 hours of no sleep it consisted of drawing at home, going to work, drawing during my lunch breaks, drawing AT work after my shift was over and sadly even drawing at my friend’s new years eve party.
So 9pm rolls around and I was finally content enough to send my work off to their website. I was looking on their website for the submission link. let’s see, submission link, submission link…wait, where’s the submission link? I started getting frantic. I just wanted to send it through and get it over with now it’s not letting me. So after carefully looking through the whole website this one part said:
Your poster(s) must be digitally uploaded by midnight (24:00) on 31 December 2010. Entries will then be closed.
When I read that the first time in the beginning of the month I said to myself “oh Dec 31…midnight…new years! got it, I can have it done by then” Now I’m reading that line over and over saying to myself “what the F do they mean?!?!” and it dawned on me. What they meant by it was tick tock tick tock 11:59pm 12/30 tick tock tick tock 12:00am 12/31 DING DING DING!!! time’s up you lose, Sucker!
I usually refrain from using profanity on my blog so that it’s suited for all viewers. young ones please cover your EARS,
FFFFUUUUUUCCCCCKKKKKK!!!!! I was late by 24 hours! why the hell do they have to phrase it that way?!?! Now I can understand and truly appreciate when people give assignments and they write: Due 11:59pm mm/dd. using 12:oo/2400 can really confuse a lot of people. Now I felt like I did all that work for nothing.
So for the rest of the night I unwined at my friend’s NYE party drinking 2010 away. go away 2010. I’m done with you!
For those who are curious on how the pictures came out. Here they are:
Enjoy, Happy New Year, and let me know what you truly think of it. thanks
I don’t think I ever showed these. For the EPIC group, early in the beginning we had a contest to come up with a logo for the group. The idea behind it was to make a logo that we can plug our own artistic touch into it, much like the many MTV logos out there. These were my ideas. My personal favorite is the red one.
The final template goes to a design of a pencil in a shape of an e. I turned it into a monster and also played around with skiing. I even went a little overboard and lost track of the main purpose and made a picture out of it.
A while back in mid October, there was a film competition called The Brooklyn Film Race. It challenged local filmmakers to create original films in just 24 hours based on the following assignment: THEME: Exaggeration SURPRISE ELEMENT: Pizza
This was what we did:
After the film was submitted, it was then shown at a screening the next week. We got 2nd place for our time slots (woohoo!) which then proceeded to the “Best of” screening and Award ceremony tonight.
We got 3 awards and I am very proud of our team for getting so far in the competition. I had a lot of fun doing it. We were all sleep deprived but it was all worth it at the end.
I stumbled upon a website that showed some really creative ways of making a company logo.
I sure could have used this sort of inspiration a while back for the EPIC logo. *grumble grumble* anyway, enjoy!!